The King of What?

it’s almost 3 am and I’m sitting alone in my room during finals week, i should at least be studying right? instead I’m just sitting on my futon sulking about how alone I am. I feel like I must have someone here or somethings wrong with me. So I’m sitting here telling myself maybe it’s Austin…or what if it’s Leo. no it has to be Brock… all of which i’ve dated before and it didn’t work out.  Honestly its been going on more than just tonight, and I’ve never really stopped and thought about why these 3. Then I realized. I’ll never be as smart as Austin. I’ll never be as attractive as Leo, and I’ll never be as relaxed and free as Brock.  I’m NOT in love with them, I’m jealous of them.  Before I moved to college I thought I had everything in my little town that I grew up in, but then I moved away and that’s when I really understood that the world’s a big place.  I feel alone more than ever so I want to think how madly I’m in love with them so to feel like I’m not alone.  Honestly though I am alone as alone as I’ve always been.  I just never realized it, and I never let it get to me before, so why should I now? I done with all that though. I don’t need it. I’m alone and I’m happy.  No, No, No, I’m not alone and happy. I’m free from the fear of being alone.

I’m free. 

I woke up one morning and you were gone…I haven’t been the same ever since…